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Well, I made a vid. After pretty much resigning myself to the fact that creativity just wouldn't be happening before I had to go back to uni. So, um, yay!

The vid: I Think I Love You
The fandom: Stargate Atlantis
The pairing: McKay/Sheppard
The point: Um.
The warning: Cheese. The Partridge Family. Cheese!

I've been wanting to do this for ages but The Shrine was the episode that made it possible, for reasons that will become obvious very early on in the vid. And I honestly cannot stress enough how lame and corny this thing is - if I tell you I would've used that silly, pink border, it's-a-dream effect if it had been at my disposal, will you begin to get the picture?

But, anyway, yay! Creativity!

So, wow!

We got a new doggy. Well, an evil mutant hell creature posing as one, anyway.

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As I type this, I am hanging out in my room at 4 in the morning, constantly going back and forth to the lounge, where this cute little bundle of pure, sweetest joy keeps making growly let-me-out-there's-a-leaf-out-there and I'm-looking-through-the-bin-that's-cool-right noises.

Still, LOVE!

As a symbol of my determination to actually use this damn LJ once in a while, I think I should summarise:

1. Losing my doggy best friend, who has been by my side since I was four years old, and not even being there for the final vet trip OR the scattering of the ashes sucks remarkably hard.

2. Vidding SGA is so HARD for me. Why is this? Man, I long for the days of vidding DS when I actually ocassionally felt like I was being original, rather than this constant, "Oh, jeez. Are people sick of this angle already? Maybe I should use THIS clip instead? Ohhh, but it doesn't WORK as well!" Sigh, man. Sigh. At this rate, this vid will be ready by next summer.

3. When my parents decide, a scant couple weeks after the previously mentioned death of a beloved family pet, that they want to go get a new one, it plays havoc with the heart strings. Am I ready for a new dog in my life? Does my opinion even count, as I'm going back to uni in October? Is it wrong, to actually feel pretty damn excited about the fact that my parents and I will be going to a sanctuary tomorrow to go look at the animals? Siiiiigh.

Well, whatever. Back to the vidding!

I guess it's just in case I accidentally manage to have a tiny spark of PG rated creativity.

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Many wet, sloppy thanks to bipolypesca for looking it over first.

Oh, the life of an only rarely inspired fandom whore. Sigh.

Still in my out-of-left-field anime place. Unable to resist the charm of Ban and Ginji, I simply HAD to make a vid that demonstrated my love of the simple-but-complex bond between the two.

Title: Back to Joy
Song: Heart and Shoulder
Artist: Heather Nova
Fandom: Get Backers
Summary: Ban is beyond help. Ginji wants to try anyway.
Download: MediaFire
Stream: YouTube

In my opinion, one of the very best things about said bond is that it makes. No. Sense. Ban is reluctant to make emotional attachments to anyone and yet accepts Ginji into his life and his heart hardly without blinking, and Ginji shows absolute trust in Ban despite knowing next to nothing about the guy's past and having to admit that what little he DOES know is hardly encouraging stuff.

This vid... well, okay, it doesn't so much explore the bond that extensively as it does focus in on a tiny part of it - but, hey, I need to keep some subjects in reserve for future vids, right?

It's like a DRUG.

I now have a Get Backers vid under my belt, and I don't think it will be the last one. Oh, well. At least this thing'll be less cutesy than The Two of Us. *shudder*

Title: Make 'Em Laugh
Music: Make 'Em Laugh from the Singin' in the Rain soundtrack
Fandom: Get Backers
Summary: Emishi Haruki. If that name means anything to you, you know what to expect.

On another, DS-y note, whoever my Seekrit Santa was is the most friggin' awesome person on the planet! Oh my GOD.

ETA: D'oh! If you don't feel like downloading, check it out on YouTube!

I am twelve.

No, seriously. Twelve.

I have to be de-aging. There is no other possible explanation.

There is simply no other reason that I would suddenly decide to revisit an old pre-teen-hood fandom and somehow get re-sucked in. I mean, yeah, I watched the dub of Digimon Adventure and Digimon Adventure 02 when they first came over here and they gave me my first slash pairings (Taito and Daiken -- yeah, yeah, I went with the majority) so it makes sense I'd want to indulge in the memories.

But, please, someone explain why the HELL last week - after rewatching those two seasons - I decided to take a look at Digimon Tamers for the first time ever and... actually became genuinely interested in it! I mean, jeez. I don't even have the excuse that slash makes me weak because, honestly, the relationship that hooked me this time was the pure, tooth-rottingly sweet love between a young boy and his mini-dinosaur. For serious.

I hate myself. And I love the stupid goddamn special bond between child and digimon that led me down this road of immaturity and... general embarrassment.

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And, you know, it's not entirely my fault. bipolypesca is a bad influence! ... Okay, we basically egged each other on. Of course, she pretty much held a knife to my throat in order to get me to finish that thing. So, really, any issues with it? Take it up with her!

Ahem. If you feel like contacting YOUR inner child along with us, you should really mosey on over to bpp's LJ for some 'Adventures in Wonderland' themed inspiration. There's CLex mixed in there, if that sweetens the deal. I promise a hilarious read.

I apologise to anyone on my flist who has now been forced to quickly scroll down their friends page in an attempt to escape my silliness. And now I'm going to go try and find my life. I swear I used to have one somewhere. I think it might've skipped town along with my pride.

I won't pretend it doesn't hurt, leaving FileFront behind. It was a more or less good year we had, but... well, you know how it is. After a while advantages are taken, resentment begins to fester, my vids begin being randomly deleted. I thought I could never love again, but... well, then I met Mediafire. It's early days yet, and there are no promises, but... I'd like to think that this is the beginning of a secure and brilliant future.

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...just thought you'd want to know. :D

Firstly, I most definitely have to give a million "I'm sorry"s to nos4a2no9 and china_shop for being pretty much totally incapable of dealing with their requests. FileFront is now not only deleting my files without emailing me in advance as it used to, but 9 times out of 10 won't let me upload .avi files at all. To top it off, I have left my big computer behind at my parents' home with all the .avi files I made on it.

Now I am all moved into my new flat, ready for university to start again, I have made a decision to just say PISS OFF to FileFront and not upload anymore there. I'm going to get around reuploading everything somewhere more permanent (as soon as I have the monies!) but, as it stands now, that isn't going to happen.

Of course, if anyone desperately needs (I don't know why you would, but...) a .wmv file that FileFront deleted, let me know and I will upload it onto Sendspace or something for you to grab while you can.

Okay. And now. A few days ago I managed to finish off a vid that I've been planning, in various forms, almost ever since I discovered the DS fandom. It looks nothing like its original incarnation in my head, is set to a different song, has a different feel... but, it feels like I've managed to finally accomplish something that has been a long time in the making. I'm not entirely happy with it, not by a log shot, but I'm far too excited about finally getting it out of my brain to just let it sit here on my hard drive while I wait until I have the means and ideas to better it.

If you want to have a look, and I haven't alienated anyone with my scatterbrained last couple of months, then...

The vid: Ring Around The Moon (Sendspace)
The size: 42MB
The music: Blood of Me by Heather Nova
The summary: Fraser thinks of home. Ray reacts.
THE WARNING: This is an R-rated vid. Depictions of sex.

A million thanks to bipolypesca for beta work. Boy, do I love that you now know DS! *happy sigh*

I hope to be getting back into the swing of the fandom now I'm all settled in and ready to maybe actually - gasp! - write something sometime. I missed you, DS!

I mean, seriously, I've never been so captivated by anything else, certainly never stayed hooked with such intensity for such a long period of time. Due South is the Justin to my Brian or something. It's crazy.

If you don't get where this is going, then let me enlighten you: NEW VID! Hoorah.

Title: Be Gentle
Pairing: Fraser/Kowalski (+ residual Stella issues)
Music: Be Gentle With Me
Artist: The Boy Least Likely To
Summary: In his late thirties, Ray is still learning to cope.

Download: large (37MB) or small (21MB)

So, this vid is my attempt at getting my feelings on the Fraser/Kowalski partnership (ahem) out there as best I can. I mean, this is how I see them, how I see their working and romantic relationship, how in particular I see Ray's feelings on the subject, his hesitations, worries and joys.

...Why, yes, I am feeling emotional today. How did you guess? Well, you see...

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Anyway, enjoy the vid!